I took a break from blog posts for a while, because quite honestly, I just didn’t feel like I had anything to say.
I’ve been working and doing all the things I do on a daily basis, but I haven’t even been journaling. I have done that for as long as I can remember, but I just didn’t have any more words.
I thought maybe my writing days were over.
I have come out of this writing desert with one thing on my mind. If you focus only on yourself, your problems, figuring out how to get out of a mess, planning for the future, and working yourself to death trying to do it all, you will eventually realize that it’s not all about you. I’m not saying you shouldn’t plan..you should. I’m not saying you shouldn’t work…you should. I’m not even saying you shouldn’t care about and be concerned for your own self…you definitely should. What I am saying is that if you only think about yourself and your future you will be very lonely, stressed out, anxious and not very fun to be around.
I know this from experience.
My life has always been happier and more fulfilled when I am doing things for other people. Unfortunately, sometimes when you get involved in a church it becomes a duty to do things for other people, and it can even become a competition…who can do more and post more pictures of doing more so everyone sees? This stresses me out and makes me not want to do things for other people at all. I tend to be a person of extremes. I’m either all in or I’m all out.
Lately, I’ve been all out.
So, what does all this mean for me? I guess it just means that I’m back. Hopefully my writing days are not over, and hopefully I can find a way to put other people back in my focus instead of thinking about myself all the time and worrying about how I’m going to do something a year from now.
I think I’m just going to try to focus on one day at a time, it’s really all we’ve got anyway.